By the Skin of the Last Minute
I used to live by the skin of the last minute. I still manage my life by the hottest fires when my plate gets full and my schedule gets hectic, but I’ve grown a lot in preparing for deadlines before they’re right on top of me, choking the life out of me and my family, demanding late-night work-a-thons that last into the wee hours. So a few weeks ago, when I finalized my remarks for a speaking engagement several days early, I was thrilled!And then it happened.God redirected seventy percent of what I was going to say thirty-six hours before I was to say it. I trusted Him to steer my revisions, but I was totally caught off guard. In the hours between finding out and my first opportunity to sit down and do something about it, it took a conscious effort to take captive every pressured thought and make it obedient to Jesus Christ by casting my cares on Him. I took lots of deep breaths!Sadly, it was déjà vu! Several months ago, a few days before speaking to the youth girls and women at our church, I had wrapped up what I was going to say, and as I enthusiastically shared key points with my daughter, I was met with a dull stare.“What? You don’t like it?” I inquired, panic building in my gut.Disappointment lurked behind supportive eyes as she sweetly and honestly answered, “Oh, I’m sure it will be fine. I was just hoping you’d talk about what God has to say about self-image and what to do about it, because you know, most of us girls really struggle with that.”And I knew. I had to change it all.Because it was a redirection from the Lord, it was better (see Letting God's Word Define You)! I knew He would be equally faithful to steer me where He wanted me to go this time, but we had to talk.“I can’t keep doing this, Lord,” I implored. “I know it’s not You; it’s me. Please help me with what it is You have for me to say tomorrow night, and can we work on my listening skills or something, because I don’t know if I can go through this again!”My first opportunity to begin reworking my speech was 8:30 p.m.It was going to be a late night. Every few words I managed to type immediately met the fate of the delete button.Alone in my office, I lowered my forehead into the palm of my hand and slapped lightly as if to press my brain into service. As I mouthed yet another desperate prayer for help, I glanced up to see my youngest daughter approaching, cautiously balancing heaven on earth in her sweet eleven-year-old hands.She knew exactly what I needed to survive the night: decaf coffee and dark chocolate.Her tender heart and thoughtfulness blessed me beyond words. It was a sweet gesture on her part and on the Lord’s.The treat was amazing, and it really did help! I don’t know if it was the pleasure of the indulgence or the distraction of its deliciousness, and I don’t care. It spoke volumes of her love and concern for me, and it ministered to my heart as a mama. She noticed my stress and met it with two of my favorite escapes!After many stops and starts, the Lord brought it all together. He provided exceedingly and abundantly beyond all I could ask or imagine in answering my prayers that night.